What is wrong?
I am worried about the baby.
I feel her move and squirm like normal, but what if she’s moving around
because something is wrong?
I am about to wake Justin to take me to the hospital when it
hits me – I’m about to lose that meal that feels like its sitting in my chest.
I didn’t feel nauseous – just a sudden urge from my body
saying “I WANT THIS OUT”.
And boy oh boy did it come out. The flood gate exploded all over that poor
toilet bowl…and lid… and I’m sure parts of the wall. I had chunks of who knows what coming out of
my mouth AND nose (I know you are glad I’m sharing).
An hour later my entire body was worn, my nose was bleeding,
my eyes were watering, and I was exhausted.
I crawled into bed and woke Justin to get me some water as I
texted/emailed the people I needed to so I could make sure my day was covered
(work and getting Taylor to/from school).
And I slept – so so much.
At the time I thought it was the flu, but it didn’t seem to last that
long. Something really was just “off”. I spent most of my day sleeping – snacking on
crackers and drinking Gatorade; too scared to eat a real meal.
And now today I sit at my desk. Trying for the last 2 hours to eat my lunch
with that same tightness in my chest. It’s
like the baby is taking up all the room and she won’t let my body get the food
to my stomach. I’d like to eat, but I’m
scared to take another bite in fear of a repeat of yesterday morning’s events.
And I’d like a nap – but it’s 104 degrees outside and way too
hot to nap in my car.
I also have no desire to proof read this email so you are
welcome for all the poorly worded sentences, misused words, and confusion.
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