I don’t feel nervous and that, to some people, has appeared as odd. The more people ask me if I’m nervous and then respond “are you sure?” when I tell them I am fine make me question my calmness.
Maybe my calm is just being naïve? Deep down I assume that everything is going to go perfectly this first time. When in reality that just isn’t true. Here is some info I found online (who knows if its legit):
- You have a really good chance of success with a surrogate or carrier. If you go this route, you will probably be able to bring home a baby within 14 to 18 months.
- Over half of all gestational carriers get pregnant after the first IVF attempt. Those that need a second or third attempt are almost always successful as well.
- If you choose a gestational carrier, don’t be surprised to bring home twin babies. Almost half of all gestational carriers give birth to multiples.
- Surrogacy may sound appealing, but it is not cheap. If you want to save money, you can manage the surrogacy arrangement on your own, but it will still cost you about $50,000. If you choose to let a large agency walk you through the process, step-by-step, it can cost you up to $120,000.
In reality there is the chance that this wont stick. Some of the risk was reduced because they've done genetic screening, but because there are frozen embryos that can also decrease the odds. I prefer to think I’m an optimist and that I’m not ignoring the odds, but hoping for the best.
But hope isn’t what is going to make this all work. But I’ll keep hoping (and sort of assuming) that this will all work out great the first time.
Knowing in the back of my mind that it doesn’t always work that way, but a calm and excited surrogate has to be better than a stressed one.
One of the reasons I even began this journey is because I have a friend that is working through this process too. She is a strong and awesome woman and today she will find out if her first attempt worked. So I’m sure she’d love some of your prayers. If all goes well we’ll be about 2 weeks apart.
And for another topic my rump is painfully sore. Like I did 500 squats and my muscle is trying to rip itself off my body.
It’s not Justin’s jabbing skills (seriously he’s awesome), but the massive amount of medication my butt muscles are making room for…that’s my best (unprofessional) guess. I also think (my unprofessional opinion) that a girl my size should be taking less medication right? I mean I’m tiny, there’s not a whole lot of me to medicate…Do you think I could make that case with the doctor?
· Tonight is my first double shot (one on each side) and for the first time I’ll be getting an injection on a side that is still sore from an earlier one.
· My friend gets good news today. And if not a peace for her and her IP so they can move forward.
· That, again, the little girls I will be getting transferred on Friday will stick this first time AND
· They will be perfect, healthy baby girls
· Through all of this I can minister to my IP and show them my Savior’s love and compassion