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Friday, March 22, 2013

Silence in the Chaos

So one of my confessions was centered around building a deeper relationship with my savior.  That resulted in me buying a bible which HOLY COW was not an easy job (maybe I have to tell you that story too).

I had a bible.  The bible I had from my childhood full of notes, scribbles, pictures, and even random memorabilia from that time in my life.  It was a loyal bible, but it was time for me to get a bible that wasn’t full of pointers on how to talk to your parents and such.

So I got a small bible that will fit in my purse and be around me nearly all the time.  No more excuses.

I also picked up a plan to read the bible in its entirety in 1 year in chronological order to help it feel more story like.  I was concerned otherwise I just wouldn’t stay engaged (another guilt filled confession for you).

In my past I had good intentions and would start to read and just get distracted.  So I am also very intentional about taking my reading time in silence which means staying up late or getting up early and so far its been a success.

I’m only a couple weeks in and have a long way to go, but something has surprised me.  It’s something I’ve heard my entire life, but never actually experienced until now.

In my moments of silence I pray that all the chaos of life and all the distractions just disappear.  I focus on the words in HIS book and take time to let them soak in.  In these moments of forcing myself to stay focused and forcing myself to slow down I get to experience this THING I’ve heard so much about.

I get to experience the life that is within HIS book.  I get to experience that these words are alive, moving, and breathing.  I get to experience HIS voice speak to me in this moment NOW from words written thousands of years ago.  I get to experience HIM in a new way.  It’s rather invigorating.

It’s not easy.  It’s hard to sit in silence.  It’s hard to slow down in this world of busy.  It’s also so very worth the outcome.  Those moments I spend with just me and my savior recharge me and I find myself longing for more of those moments.  I find myself counting down the minutes until my break at work where I get to sit in the silence with just me and my FATHER.

He’s teaching me something precious right now, but that’s a blog for another day.

1 comment:

  1. I'm so happy you have been able to find time for you to be just and God. What reading plan did you choose I had one a long time ago I got in a journal that was given to me but I never used it and now I can't find it for the the life of me I like that I could mark what I had read in it.